Who Are the Truth Tellers of Society?

Suicidal People (TW)

I have a complicated relationship with trigger warnings for suicide. Hearing about the pain a person is experiencing or the way they may choose to end their own pain does not “trigger” me. What does trigger the fuck out of me is the cruelty that this country inflicts on people which causes them to want to end their lives. 

I understand that everyone has their own reason:

• Isolation

• Addiction

• Homelessness

• Overwhelm 

• Stress 

• Loneliness 

• Debt 

• Health Issues

• Depression 

• Bullying 

• Trauma 

With that said, what is the root cause of many of these reasons? In my mind, it’s the direct result of a sick society. This country was not created for the majority of us to live thriving happy lives. We were’t raised in a system where we exist in community, support each other and our basic needs are cared for. 

Nah, fuck that. Many of us are out here on our own.

Am I suicidal? Absolutely, each and every day. 

Do I want to die? Nope, absolutely not. 

What I want is for the constant battle to CARE FOR MY BASIC NEEDS to end. 

Living in poverty sucks.

Chronic loneliness is trash.

The inability to care for my health is painful. 

Why would I want to stay around for this? 

Please understand, I sincerely believe that my life will improve at some point. (I hope? Mayhaps?) But for real, when babe? I’m almost 50. My Black ass is tired. People have limits when it comes to how much pain they can endure. I have a limit. I’m unclear how close I am to my own breaking point. However, I do know that I am exhausted from the endless fight to survive. I can’t continue to live this way. 

This is not a life. 

People who choose to end their own pain aren’t weak. We are mirrors for the inhumanity that exists in the world. 

If I ever do end my precious time here, have no doubt that it will be the direct result of capitalism. 

When I say capitalism can burn, I mean it. 

This is not how we are meant to live. We all deserve so much damn better. 

#capitalismcanburn